I'm so troubled nowadays ... I guess I took it a bit too far... I took a large step without calculating my small steps... Am I wrong in doing it ? Is it a mistake ... 2 hours of antagonizing waiting just to earn me a mere 15 minutes of happiness... Result ? Days of pain and troubles... It's really Murphy's Law ... My feelings are so bottled up, Im really about to blow up or maybe break down ... Im sorry for affecting the mood of people around me.. Im real sorry ... Appetite is being affected as well ... 1/2 a bowl of noodles make me full... Weird but true ... I need some time on my own ... Some time where I can allow my mind to indulge in its own dimension... To allow it to relax and stop thinking too much ... I wish that I was living next to a beach... That way I can shout out my troubles to the never ending great volume of the ocean ... Infinitely containing my troubles ... This way I wouldn't have any space constraints... I wonder whether the collision I have with you is what I plan for ... I want it to be inelastic ... This way we would coalesce and move on together ... Well it may jus only be a dream ... Back to troubles again .................
